How do I ever survive

At times I wonder, is it harder to trust someone, or it is harder to not trust anybody in your life? People who opt for a more simpler life would say “There are people out there you should trust, there are some people out there you shouldn’t trust”. People who thinks they are helping you would say, “Never trust anyone to the fullest”.

At times I felt angry. At times I wonder if my english is really that bad or at times… is it just the best way to dodge such question and just entertain me with some ridiculous answer. But then again, most of the time they think I am just asking silly questions and make a big joke out of it.

I am actually amazed how human can really lie so well, as if we were born with it. I am not a saint, so yes I lie everyday in my life. People lie so much that they even have classification for lies. Some lies are classified as “secrets”. Yes, a deadly yet powerful word that wraps and cover many things beneath it.

Some lies are classified as “a kind lie”. A favourite and commonly used classification. It’s always a kind lie, they never admits it’s cruel and ugly out there. It always start with “I lie because I didn’t want you to think otherwise, I don’t mean to upset you.”

Some are just daily lies. It’s like how an apple a day works for a human. People normally will say, “I’m coming / On the way” (when they were actually just leaving their room) and when they arrive late, “traffic jam just now”.

While some were just eternal lies. Like “till death do us part” or “i will love you forever”

Right… it just seems so hard to trust someone. Yet there is a prt of our soft heart is trusting everyone else because of one powerful word. So powerful that I believe if someone can master it, they can actually control the whole world. Haha… it makes me laugh each time I think about it. But is true. Everyone “HOPES”.

That’s why god is so busy. That is why there are so many stars. To cater the need for people to hang all their hopes on a star. And I finally know why there are so many meteor. I guess, the stars have overload of hopes.

Everyone hates people that lie (which includes me) but we all lie. Ah… how ironic~