The haze is crazy. I can hardly see anything. It’s seems so blur. Hemmm….. what to do… It smells like everyone around me is smoking. I am living in a smoking section world. I can hardly breath. I feel like I am gonna be blind some day.
Sometimes it really hard to be in the middle of everything. In the middle of situations, it’s hard. People tends to take sides. Subconciously or conciously. In the middle of right or wrong. In the middle of truth and false. In the middle of dreams and reality. It’s always so hard.
Please understand… please understand. As a matter of fact I don’t understand. I can never understand. At one side they say everyone has their own point of view. And at this point they are asking us to understand. I can’t understand… what are they trying to say or what point are they trying to make.Â
Why I have to be the person who understand whatever everyone wants to say. Why can they understand that I need someone to understand me too… 
Yeah.. whatever…. I will have to understand… even if I like it or not.
I always loved Dunkin’ Donuts. Like who doesn’t?
They have loads of yummy jelly donuts.
It always makes me happy especially with a big bite on the sugar powdered donuts with loads of jelly fillings in the center.
AMAZING – is the only word I can think of the right now to describe that feeling.
Yesterday, Sun bought donuts for tea time.
I was to be surprised by his selection as he made the surprise choices. Let’s hope he picked something I like.
Looking at the box of 6, seems he bought everything I like – 2 raspberry, 2 strawberry and 2 double chocolate donuts.
Since we are still full from our lunch, we decided to watch movie. Half way through, I then decided to dig in to the double chocolate! Yummy~ love how chocolaty it is.
After an hour or so, Sun came tempting me with the balance of the donuts.
In which we decided to try the strawberry filled ones.
It’s obvious it didn’t disappoint me as it is filled with loads of strawberry fillings.
And I saved the best for last. Yes, always kept things I like to the very end.
Now, it’s the time to try our the raspberry filled donut.
And as I bite closer to the center, I noticed the donut is filled with a milky coloured filling.
But the oddest part of things is when it start to taste like banana.
How can it be a banana donut when we ordered raspberry?
I am so disappointed. What happened?
When I looked at the hole where the jam is being pumped in, it is reddish in colour but on the inside, it is totally bananas.
No signs of both the flavours being mixed. It’s pure banana flavoured donuts.
I can’t help but to wonder if those banana donuts are leftovers and they try to cover the hole with raspberry jam to pretend it to be raspberry donuts?
Sigh, now I miss my raspberry donuts.
There are time in life where we feel that life is like a photostat machine, printing out the same pages over and over again.
Nothing exciting and nothing new has happened in life and everything remained constant and same.
I want to photostat another page.
It’s time to go explore and start finding a new page.
In recent, a lot of things is happening and been running through my mind .
And of course there are a lot of changes that is happening in life, which I am pretty bored of.
To be honest, I really hate changes. I am really someone who loves my comfort zone.
And I believe, things never really change for the better. Rarely you see bad guys changed to be good guys (in most cases it all only happen in the movies ).
Most of the time, changes are limited to only words being said and empty promises. Which really is just a way to buy more time in hopes that one “wait and forget”.
It’s really hard trying to share thoughts across to people around as I doubt they will take time to understand why I hate changes. And when you try to state your point, you were seen as contesting or challenging their views. And in their point of view, it is always me who contest others. I wonder if it ever cross their mind that they are the one who is trying to contest me instead?
Yeah, life is a one way street. In their view, they were on the “right” lane, but not in my view. Guess we will always not see the same view.
Such an interesting phrase that I find that it is so true.
Nobody knows what will happen in the future.
To those who always step on me, do remember there is a price to pay.. someday.
You may have to ASS someday .
Yeah yeah…. ever since anyone saw Forrest Gump…. It has been a very famous line.Yeap… life is always been like a box of chocolate. I checked my emails today… hemmm one of my friend send me something really meaningful and gave me a whole new perspective in life.
it isn’t so bad after all… 
In a blink of an eye… it’s june, middle of the year. Things just pass by so fast. Yeah.. it passes so fast… blink blink… and I am getting older… sigh..Â
I am starting to get more emotional these days. Hahaha.. maybe that is what you get when you get older… get more polluted by this world, this toxic life…..
Take three deep breath and tell myself “everything’s gonna be okay… everything’s gonna be okay… everything’s gonna be okay.” Yeah… everything’s gonna be okay. Will everything be okay? I dunno… I have doubts. But that’s what I always tell myself.Â
No one knows if everything’s gonna be okay….. No one know for sure… What big waves are ahead of us.. are not known. Still a mystery…